Published by Lake Union Publishing on September 25th 2018
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Rachel Croft wakes up on the family boat, one beautiful morning in Bermuda. The sun is shining, and she is happy to start her day. Happy, until she notices that her son, Oscar is not in his bed. After she searches around the boat for him, her concern turns into every parent’s worst nightmare. While she and her husband, James, frantically search their boat, it become evident that Oscar is not on board.
An investigation quickly takes place and in the days that follow, it becomes clear that Oscar is gone, and he will not be coming back. Grief is a tricky thing. Two parents suffer the same loss but will grieve their loss differently. While one parent may not be able to get out of bed, another may throw himself/herself into work commitments. One parent may lose their appetite, one may still be able to eat. Feelings of guilt blame and doubt can emerge. Grief is not a competition, but it is understandable how one parent would think the other is not grieving as much as the other. One may think “I can’t get out of bed, I can’t stop crying, I can’t function at all, and my spouse is walking around, showering and walking the dog. He/she must not be as devastated as I am” I read that approximately 80% of marriages do not survive the death of a child. In this book, James wants he and Rachel to face their loss together, while she thinks everything they had is over and wants to be alone.
Boy what a sad book. Cee-Cee works as a housekeeper for James and Rachel and she lost a child years ago. She knows all too well, what they are going through. She writes beautiful and heartfelt letters to Rachel and helps her to come to terms with her loss.
Every parent’s worse nightmare has come true in this book. It was very easy to feel for all the adult characters in this book: James, Rachel, Cee-Cee. All lost a child. If you are a parent and have ever lost sight of your child even briefly, then you know that intense sharp feeling of dread that instantly hits you. Imagine that dread not going away until it evolves into something else. Read this book with some tissues nearby. This one pulls at the heartstrings and then some. Wonderfully written, captivating emotional read.
Thank you to Lake Union Publishing and NetGalley who provided me with a copy of this email in exchange for an honest review. All the thoughts and opinions are my own.